Is Blessing Spelled with a “C”?

I’ve always heard bad luck comes in threes.

Don’t you believe it!

It comes in waves. Tsunami-sized tidal waves with a single goal: to drown you.

Alzheimer’s nightmarish months leading up to the death of my mother in June; the blood, sweat (LOTS of it! Picture summertime in SC combined with minimal AC) and tears of downsizing my dad from a 3 bedroom/2 bath home with basement to a 1 bedroom apartment, and still facing the prospect of getting his old place ready to put on the market, keeping in mind I don’t think they threw anything away in 43 years of living there; then he gets shingles.

Enough already! Calgon…take me away!!

Then, when I think it can’t possibly get any worse; it does.

It was right before my youngest son’s 26th birthday in July. Keep in mind two years earlier—to the day—he was in ICU fighting for his life against some weird bacteria that had given him sepsis. He calls to drop the “C” bomb. It hit my heart like a bull’s eye. He has colon cancer. What? A 26 year old with colon cancer?!? Is this some kind of a joke?

At first there’s disbelief and grief… lots of it. Next is anger. Why God? He’s already had his “big” thing. Remember the sepsis? That should’ve been it. By all rights he should have smooth sailing after that trip through hell. But no! Cancer! He’s your child. You’re supposed to bless and prosper him. What about Jeremiah 29:11? What are you doing?

But I’ve worked through that, now. Finally. I’ve reached a point of acceptance, thankfulness that it isn’t worse. Now I’m waiting with him to see what the next step will be. Chemo and radiation…surgery…. Looking for the blessings in all this tangled mess, seeing the mess as a blessing.

I still don’t know why. I might never know. What I DO know is this wasn’t a surprise to God and he’s fully in control, even when—to my eyes—things are spinning out of control. He’s bigger than the problem. He’s got this.

And knowing that brings peace.

John 16:33 These things have I spoken to you that in Me you might have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.

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